Making the most of now

Is it possible to make the most of what you want when you have it? Instead of looking forward to the day you don’t want to arrive, is it really possible to just forget that and live wholly in the present?

I am moving back home in two days and though I will be going on a lovely holiday I am dreading that day. Why?

• Because I am moving away from my boyfriend and will not be moving back in with him for about three months.
• In the meantime we will be a four hour train journey apart and will both be trying to find full-time work, hence only being able to see each other some weekends.
• He is also travelling to Japan for three weeks, overlapping when I am on holiday but meaning we won’t see each other for over a month and contact might be hard.

I have experienced this every time we have had our holidays at university. At easter we didn’t see eachother for a month though we often spoke. At these times my anxiety gets a lot worse, and I often worry obsessively over things I cannot control.

But my original question was why can’t we just enjoy it while it lasts? At the moment we aren’t spending every second together but I know he is only a few metres away in another room and that is so comforting.

But slowly creeping into my head are thoughts of when I will move and how much I will miss him.

Tags: Anxiety, enjoy the moment, future, Life, living in the present, long distance relationships, moving away, Personal, questions, relationships, The Word Is Love, thoughts, worry

Penny posted this article under The Word Is Love, Uncategorized on Sunday, June 22nd, 2008 at 4:31 pm You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS feed. You can leave a comment or trackback from your own site.