Marmalade Skies

Sometimes when I am around others I just want to disappear. This is a terrible feeling, it’s almost like I start to feel trapped and all my mind can focus on is getting out. I don’t want to focus on conversation: I can’t make conversation. I just think about how stupid I am and how [...]

Recently I have been plagued by all sorts of obsessive thoughts, thinking out absurd consequences of every kind of scenario. I’m not sure, but it seems as though this kind of thinking and pessimism goes hand in hand with the social anxiety that I experience. The main themes of my thoughts recently relate to a [...]

My days have been characterized by two things recently: rain and revision.
After the great weather here a couple of weeks ago I thought that the sun would never go away. Isn’t it funny how English people tell themselves these things the minute we have a bright spell? Out come the mega-short skirts, the flip-flops, the [...]

After a day of revising hard, including writing two practice essays, I was feeling really happy. I had achieved something. Now, all of a sudden, the old feelings have settled in again. I’m getting nothing done yet I’ve wasted the whole evening.

So close to finishing my degree the thought keeps striking me: ‘what does it [...]

I have often heard that people with conditions like trich have problems with concentration and motivation. I know I am definitely slow at doing things, and I always come up with great ideas (like writing music, learning a new instrument…) that I never follow through with. However, I have always done well academically. I am [...]